All my life God has placed desires in my heart... Many years back i desired to direct church plays and God opened up a door to allow me to do just that (i have been directing plays for about the last 13 to 15 years). Then about 5 years ago i wanted to be part of a worship team and for about 6 months God gave me an opportunity to do that also. In the past year i have had a desire to take photographs. i love looking at things through the eye of a lens. In just the past few weeks i have gotten phone calls to take pictures for people. Wow! God's word is true when it says that He will give you the desires of your heart. Thank you Father for allowing me to use my talents for your kingdom!!!! I am humbled that you would pick me to be used in such a way. :O) What are you desires? If God placed them there, then He will allow you to use them. His words are true!

Heidi

Today is a very special day... it is my oldest daughters birthday. For all you mothers, do you remember the day each child was born. I remember bits and pieces but the first is one you don't forget to quickly.
I was going about the day as usual when i started having cramps. So i called my mother in law and she said i would have the baby that evening... you know what? She was right. That evening i had a little girl that was 8lbs. and 7oz. Wow. She was perfect... until i got her home and she cryed for 3 days straight. I called the doctor to find what i should do and he said "take two asprins and call me in the morning." lol Me? What about the baby. That was the first and it hasn't been the last time i asked what do i do with this child. lol
She is a beautiful young woman that i love soooo much. We have had our challenges but our good times out weight the bad. She is talented, loving, athletic, beautiful(inside and out) and is willing to serve God and follow him. I am a proud mother. That is ok, isn't it? Of course. God bless you Heidi, today and each day ahead of you.

War week

War week,
It has been awhile since i have bloged so here i go. This past week was a wonderful time of growing and planting. When we got there i didn't know what to expect. But as we sat under the teachings of R.T. kendall and Winkey Pratney i quickly understood that this wasn't another youth convention... the anointing was so strong on the teaching and the worship that you did not want to leave but we knew we came to give not just to recieve. So the afternoons where a great time to give of our time and labor. We really saw great results from that time. ON the last day of our services in the neighborhood we were a part of a block party to bring all the neighbors together for some fellowship time. I was drawn to a particular house because of the interesting display in the front yard...
So my curiosity got the best of me and i asended up the stairs to the porch where i meet a very interesting man. I asked what the sculpture was or what it represented and after talking a while we came up with that it was a monument of some sort... This man's name was richard. A 74 young man with a great gift of creativity. As we were talking his nephew was sitting there also and began to tell me about the inside of the house... He said i should take a look at it. It was amazing, on every wall and ceiling was pasted pictures and articles from newspapers and magazines and even some posters. A museam of history from the 1979 to the present time.


Well it was near our time to leave and as we where saying our good byes i suggested and stongly encouraged the two men to come to church that evening. Well they both came up with some lame excuse saying " well i have to go and get cleaned up and changed." After a time of beckoning them to come they finally said they would. I told them i would wait outside the church and wait for them.
So i waited and waited and was about to give up when Amber came out to keep me company. We were standing outside for about 5 to 10 minutes when a fire started down the street.




We could see a large black cloud coming out of a building and then some flames. i was about to leave again but Amber asked if we could stay and wait until the fire department came. I said " ok". We stayed for about 10 more min. and as the smoke changed in color and the flames died down from the water coming out of the trucks i told amber we had to get into the service and as we turned toward the doors there directly in front of us were richard and troy, his nephew. God's timing is perfect. They sat with us and stay the whole time and richard even told me that he had not been in a church since the 1960's. Wow. And as he left one of the pastors that lives right next to him was in the hall at the exact time he was leaving which allowed for Richard to connect with a church member. God's timing is perfect. Please pray for these to men. God has a great purpose and plan for a wonderful future for them... To God be the glory great things He has done!!!!

the will of God

in the center of God’s will
today Pastor Flattery talked about dying to oneself and living for Christ... He also said that there is a saying that says "being in the center of God’s will"... as i was thinking about that ... i thought of a tornado and understanding what scientist say about the center of the storm... that it is the calmest...
Even though things around us seem to be spinning out of control we know that when we die to ourselves and allow Christ to live through us that, that is where true peace comes from. You can’t hurt a dead person. Matt. 16:24&25 says..."If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.
If we want to gain we must lose, if we want to live we must die!

Biting my nails

Ok... i have a bad habit. I bite my nails. Then i was thinking... (that could be dangerous) A bad habit is sinning also... how many times do we do something wrong and know it... I bite my nails and know i should stop but i have done it so much that i don't even think about it sometimes until someone says "stop doing that, that is a bad habit". Ok, so what do i do? How do i stop biting? Well... i could put bad tasting stuff on my nails, or put fake nails on, or put gloves on. There are things i could do... but do i? That is the same with sin... we know how to avoid it but why don't we? What do you think.... Let me know

i have a minute

Ok... so here i go. I have a minute. So what am i going to say? That i just had a great time with a great bunch of people... Game night! I am so blessed to have great friends with a great ability to make me...Sam makes me laugh, Bethany makes me think, Katie makes me creative, Debbie makes me better, Liesa makes me a friend. God makes me! Thank you! I will try to write more in the future...

Do You Believe?

I read a book called "Saint" by Ted Dekker... There was a passage that talked about believing. Faith... is that not the key? I am not an author so i am going to write some of the lines from the book that really spoke to me...

"You are chosen! We are all chosen, but you for a specific task; which depends on your belief. " and "he couldn't just believe in some unseen, unfathomable Creator who refused to show his hand unless properly summoned! It made no sense. The stuff of a child's fantasy. Unless you become like a child...

When i read this, it made me think about having faith and being chosen... do i believe i am chosen for a specific task? Has God hand picked me to do something that he hasn't asked anyone else to do? And do i have the faith... do i believe that i can accomplish the task? But it is simple... unless i become like a child "in my faith". Do i trust God that when He says go! that he will provide. When he says wait! will i be patient and trust that he knows best?

I know this book is a fictional book but i believe there is nothing fictional about the truth that is spoken in these words.

The Bible says... we are a chosen generation... do you believe? For such a time as this... do you believe? Say to the mountian "be removed" and it shall if you have faith as a mustard seed... do you believe? Do i believe? Do we believe?

The Bible also says... i can do all things through Christ that gives me strength! I do believe! I do believe! I do believe! "From the heart the mouth speaks" I do believe!!!!!!!!!!